god is nothing to me

god is nothing to me
he is like a cloud
i don't care much
i don't care at all

whatever he is
i don't believe he is there
because he doesn't believe
that i am here

always watching,
that's what some people say.
then he is a stalker,
peering at you through your window

watching

god is nothing to me
he is immortal
he does not need to experience
our pain

he is selfish
he doesn't help
anyone
or anything

god is nothing to me
like dust in the air
i don't mind
because he doesn't mind me

he made humans,
that's what some people say.
then he is evil,
because he tortures me.

he made me
so he can watch,
so he can see me,
so he can stare while i suffer

i am like a moth
he is the child with a magnifying glass
he burns holes in my wings
and watches in awe.

as i suffer,
as i cry
as i refuse to obey
he doesn't care

and so i don't care either
he will find another moth to torture
and never learn his lesson
let him do it

see what happens
he will learn someday
and i will see that
right before i die

or he will continue being
his ignorant self,
immortal and selfish,
and also useless

to anyone,
but most especially,
to me